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[Alexandr Korol]

to university, initially I did not see who was bad or good. I only later began to notice this and write about it. That was exactly when the immersion into the world of people began, as if with each year or each month I saw more and more how terrible the world was — but before, I did not see it. And it turns out that if I did not see this before, then it means I was in some kind of world where everything was good, or simply where all the bad and dark was not highlighted for you. But let us not dive too deeply into this now, rather let me get to the essence I want to convey. If I could meet a girl-classmate or a boy from some English courses, then if the girl, let’s say, looked somehow poorly or watched some scary Japanese cartoons with mutants, or if this boy dressed all in rocker style, I did not see it. Can you imagine? That is, I did not have a single percent of judgment that they were unattractive, or that they were bad, or that they were doing something wrong, or that they needed somehow to wash or to change clothes, I did not have such an understanding. It felt as if you simply cannot judge people at all, and if you cannot judge them, then you also do not want to change them. This is a very important point. That is, you do not make any remarks to them at all. And it turns out that if a person had a hole in their sock, bad breath, or wanted to spend all their money now to buy a motorcycle, then earlier I could only say: “Well great, great that you have some goals, well done.” But I would not have said to that boy back then, when I was in the world of heaven, I would not have said to him that a motorcycle is bad and dangerous. No, that is, it was as if earlier, even with good intentions, notice, with good intentions, I never made remarks to anyone. Even with good intentions. And only later, the longer I stayed in the world of people, I began to have the feeling, the thought, the desire, and the vision of people’s flaws that I simply could not control, not to notice them. I saw them more and more, and I always wanted to warn everyone about them. And what is the reaction of people? If you point something out to a person, even with good and bright intentions, then you are the bad one. That is how the world of people is arranged, because you are judging him, you are attacking him. And even if he stained his sweater, and he doesn’t know it and he is happy, and you tell him about it, you spoiled his mood, he will associate you as the bad one. That is, all the truth that you show him, or all the flaws that you reveal to him, and all the illusions that you try