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[Alexandr Korol]

opened the door to this whole “Alternative History” for me; it all started
with her. And now I see that there is no spark or energy in her, and she is
in the underworld. The reason is unclear. But there is a reason. I started
investigating and checking so I could pull her out of there, and I realized
it’s something in her head — some thought about something. It’s not even
about her actions or lifestyle. Physically, she lives correctly, but there is
something wrong in her mind regarding something. Or she has a resentment
toward herself or someone else. Imagine — just a single resentment, a mere
mental setting in the head, and it immediately keeps her in the underworld.
That is what I saw. Yes. It was sad to see that. Seriously. What’s next?

Next. We are talking with Valentina, and the Spirit speaks to me through her.
She says:

— Forget the idea that sometime soon, or ever, everything will simply conclude,
and you’ll just exhale, relax, and it’ll be over. That will never happen. Our
story is such that one must always remain vigilant, and there will always
be adventures.

Well, she used a different word, but I call them adventures. She said that
adventures will go on forever; there is no end to it. That was the first thing
she said. But take note of how contradictory it seems — though it isn’t, really.
It’s just different cycles, different stages. When I tell her about the path of
“Alternative History”, about this novel, she says that I have passed eight
circles, eight chapters, but that a ninth chapter remains. And about ten
times — even after the meeting was over — she kept repeating this phrase:
that I shouldn’t be afraid of this last, ninth circle. She said I passed the first
one, and the first was a thousand times harder “because you didn’t know the
what, the why, or the how.” Now, I have experience and I know everything,
so the ninth circle will be easier.
But, on the contrary, this scared me even more. Because if this last ninth
circle — which I must pass now, or perhaps am already passing — were
truly not important or not scary, she wouldn’t have kept talking about it.