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[Alexandr Korol]

This is the point, in the future I am a blister on the heel of some creature, but for the past, that is, for people, I may be God. And it’s not clear what kind either. And as I said, earlier I could feel myself as some superiority, and when more secrets were revealed to me, I was deflated. But not in relation to you, people, and to the world of people. But because another world has opened for me, where I am a teeny-tiny thing in comparison. And it is good, because it gives even more sobriety, clarity. I just feel myself as usual. Naturally, I see things differently, but it all takes some getting used to. And the way you feel now, or the way you felt five years ago – it was a natural state for you. Because you get used to it. And that’s how it is for me. So it all happens very much as if unnoticed. Of course, when some discoveries happen, there is a shock, an insight, a realization, but it doesn’t last long. Then you digest it all, and everything is okay. Then you have another epiphany, and then you digest it again. But the fact that I often have epiphanies, that’s true. And then the mind digests it, the feelings digest it, the feelings digest it physically, that I lie down, I can’t get up. That’s the kind of mutation that happens. And then a new discovery happens. But I will say this, there is a lot of new information, and it’s been going on and on. And I realize that on the one hand, you can evaluate it through people’s eyes, that it is already unreal beyond belief. And since now I see another world, in that world my knowledge is one percent of the beginning. And I realize how much I still don’t know and how much there is to learn. It’s great that for some people I’m a “wow” and for others I’m a microbe. And that’s how I realize myself now too, depending on where I look. When I look back, yeah, I’ve come a long way. And it’s like something unattainable for people. And if I look ahead, there’s just not even a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s a huge tunnel with a million new rules, new puzzles, and you have to figure it all out. That’s how I feel. I mean, really, if I had read your question a week ago, I would have answered it differently. I would have said, “wow, I feel a surge of strength, energy, I’m omnipotent.” And now I’m just saying I’m a zit.

Question: In different periods of time, God manifests Himself on earth in three states as a reflection, that is, attention of Himself: Spirit, son and already then becomes God. It is all continuous and cyclic. And accordingly, the matrix, in which we live, is also in constant movement, folding and unfolding, as if breathing. Do I understand correctly that not only man, but also God develops?