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[Alexandr Korol]

It’s tough to convey, but... Actually, here’s the paradox: let me explain it this way. I’ve always said that the material and social world is the easiest for me, like a snap of the fingers. Yet, for some reason, people compete there, striving to succeed in it and show something off. I’ve always written that the hardest thing is spirituality. Not wanting or having anything, and still managing yourself – that’s something nobody can do, not even the loudest braggart with 100 cars and 100 homes. Because they are weak when it comes to not eating or drinking something, understand?
On the other hand, we live in a socio-material world. But imagine, developing materially seems easy to people because they’re shown this illusion: “Look, took out a loan, invested here, and boom, you’re a businessperson! Look, Kate did it; why can’t you?” Nowadays, those illusions are everywhere. Now, let me put spirituality to you the same way. Imagine: no loans needed, no money needed, nothing is needed except simply, like with kung-fu, learning to control and discipline yourself, and that’s it. Mastery of self. Imagine – no money needed. No expensive trainings, no retreats, none of that nonsense is needed. Just start controlling yourself. Say, you bite your nails – catch yourself doing it, and then stop it. Train yourself not to do it. You drink tea and start rinsing your mouth at the table, and you know you’ve been told not to do that – so catch yourself, and stop. You’re too lazy to do morning exercises, and you rarely do them – learn to do them every day. You forget to do practices like Opening the Channel, or to meditate – yet all it takes is to sit down with some music and meditate. But you forget. If you can’t handle this, you won’t be given anything else in life. If you have no self-control. Now, let me explain further.
As it turns out, there are two groups of people. The old version of people – they live on autopilot. They aren’t bad; we’ve all been like them. But these are people who aren’t capable of making independent decisions or living independently. Everything is on autopilot because they are small. But when you grow up, you start doing things yourself. You catch yourself: “Wow, I was doing that unconsciously on autopilot, doing this unconsciously too.” Why? Because you were still in the old system, that old world. In the new world, there is no autopilot. You are always conscious.
And so, I’m fully conscious. All the time. I’m sitting here at the table, fully aware of every action. I don’t just see something, run off, grab it, leave it somewhere, then forget about it – like many people do. That’s not how I live. You need to learn this. It’s not even about whether you want or don’t want something,