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[Alexandr Korol]

Chapter 18. The Spirit of Justice

Play the track: Marilyn Manson – If I Was Your Vampire

When I’m in the Spirit of Justice, the first thing I experience is a crazy level of clarity. It feels like I’m perceiving everything at 360 degrees, as if my attention, my eyes, are like a fly’s eyes – thousands of them – and they notice every little movement, even a strand of hair sliding across the floor. It’s a very unusual way of perceiving everything. There’s this intense clarity, and a stable state of mind – it’s like everything is still, no emotions, no feelings, no thoughts, and not even a trace of any particular mood. There is a slight tone, but it doesn’t interfere with the clarity in which you exist. It’s a state of heightened awareness of both yourself and reality. The tone, or the essence of this energy, can be summed up in one word: fearlessness. It’s the atmosphere, the energy you feel when you’re in the Spirit of Justice. This fearlessness isn’t what sinful people often think it is. Many assume that having inflated ambitions is fearlessness, or that being overly arrogant means being fearless – but it’s not like that at all. Some people have an inflated ego and think that’s fearlessness, but it’s not. True fearlessness is when you’re so completely at peace that you have no thoughts, even your body is calm, and it’s not anticipating any danger. When you’re not in the Spirit of Justice, even if just one percent of you, your skin or your senses, is cautious, fearing that something might happen to you. But when you’re in the Spirit of Justice, there is no fear at all. It feels like you’re completely protected – absolutely. Imagine being given personal security, with four bodyguards walking alongside you. You could walk down the street, say anything to anyone, even stick your tongue out at someone, and nothing would happen to you. You wouldn’t even need to explain who you are or engage with anyone. But here’s the thing: just because you feel that kind of fearlessness, it doesn’t make you arrogant or trigger any other thoughts or desires because of that feeling. No. First and foremost, being in the Spirit means being a pure person, without any weak or sinful human qualities. That’s why, surprisingly, when you’re in the Spirit of Justice, you don’t feel the urge to punish anyone, argue with anyone, or wish harm on anyone. None of that is there. There’s none of that slyness or malice, no desire to punish or teach someone a lesson. You don’t want any of that. You’re completely balanced, psychologically and emotionally stable, and it’s as if you possess unreal wisdom. No bully or criminal can frighten, anger,