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[Alexandr Korol]

into arguments, conflicts, or lawsuits, I always try to calm things down. Whether in work or relationships, I always tell people not to rush, to think things through, and first and foremost – what? To calm their emotions, to meditate, to go to church, and only then make a decision. And here I am, forgetting all my own rules, not following any of them, and acting like a spoiled, hysterical mess for three days. Can you imagine? It’s insane. So I started reading again, and I strongly recommend it to all of you – reading about “Mara Tempts the Buddha”, about what Mara represents in Buddhism, about Maya in philosophy, about Samsara and all these illusions that trap people, and also about Yama in Buddhism. It was all incredibly interesting. Then I read about Surya and Indra as well, but that was when I was already coming out of that influence again – that was the sunrise. The sunrise after darkness. And just imagine, I had been plunged into such darkness.
What else is interesting? Since I was traveling and, first and foremost, wanted to break free from this influence, I didn’t call Big Alexander right away but instead recorded a voice message for him, as if I were sitting in a trench. I told him, “Alexander, here’s the thing. I’m being attacked by demons, just like we were talking about Buddha recently. They’re attacking me – absolute madness. But I’m holding on.” I listed everything for him, saying, “This and this and this happened, and imagine, it all seems like nightmares, horrors, but then I come to my senses, and nothing has actually happened. What kind of nonsense is this? How is this even possible? Who’s doing this?” I told him, “Since I understand that these tests before enlightenment are brutal,” and he replied, “Yes, yes, that’s exactly how it is.” Guys, seriously, this is quite literally what you’d put in quotation marks – “seems.” Everything just seems that way when you’re under this negative perspective, when you fall into this hell, and it feels absolutely real, but it’s all an illusion. It’s just like I’ve always written about people – there are so many of them now – who can come up with things, invent scenarios, hate me, hate you, lash out at everyone, when in reality, it’s just their dark force pulling them into a delusion, making them lose their minds. And I think this test I went through isn’t just about me. I think it concerns all people. And maybe this is exactly what Mystic-Old-Man talked about back in August. I wrote about it when I came out of the underworld, and he also said that this...