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[Alexandr Korol]

And then I also understand that this voice I hear, this presence that enters me — is the Spirit. And this helped me visualize and grasp very clearly how it all works. This was well depicted in the Russian series “Rasputin”, and in many films and shows where something enters someone — especially when it happens to the “fools for Christ.” Just like with Joan of Arc, something similar happened to her as well. But again, one can lose control over oneself — I write more about this in my other volumes. And I understand that if I have invented or conceived of a flying saucer — that is, a time machine — then I realize that a flying saucer must be a time machine. Which means that time machines must exist in the future. And I realize — so this must be who is coming to me, this must be whose voice I am hearing. So that means that what I have just deciphered, it must have been read in a book in the future, or something happened in the future — so that means I exist there, in the future. Maybe it’s me, or maybe it’s some of my relatives, or some generation of other people—maybe it’s them watching over me from there, because all of this has already happened. And that explains why I am treated this way — because I am someone from there, someone I have not yet become. This is the essence of “Alternative History”— that if something happens to a person, it comes from somewhere outside, and that “outside” is the future. And suddenly, I begin to understand further — if that is the case, then who am I? And if I am to decipher even more in the future or become someone, then what does that mean? I start analyzing various Christian scriptures and looking at different icons, and I see... There is an icon of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, and this is often mentioned. And then I realize — maybe the Son of God is the present, and God is the future, and the Spirit is the past, and it is all like an ouroboros. Ouroboros — you know, the serpent that bites its own tail? Maybe it is some kind of cycle, that He comes from the future as the Spirit, appearing in the form of a dove — though that is just how it is depicted. That is His presence, and He enters these people whom I called messengers. Or He enters me — the voice I hear is that very Spirit. I open an icon, and seriously — how can this be? Open any icon of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit and look — the faces are the same! The Son of God has a young face, but God — it’s Him, just aged, with gray hair, the same face, the same eyes. What, will you say that this is just some arbitrary rule in iconography schools that appeared out of nowhere? Maybe it did arise unconsciously, and everyone