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[Alexandr Korol]

and how does one reach the point where they can enter paradise? What is it? I start drawing a parallel with hell, realizing that all these worlds are so overwhelming in their emotions, which we begin to feel, and in the thoughts that come to our minds, that one must be prepared for them. It’s as if a person — my reader — cannot live in paradise because, in that paradise, they would begin to self-destruct. It’s as if one must be psychologically prepared and hardened to be able to stay in paradise. Let me give you a literal example to make it clearer. Imagine you have a mountain of debt, a pile of problems, a pimple on your backside that keeps sending you to the hospital, people you owe money to, people who owe you money, you’re stuck in social media, lying, envying others, being envied, comparing yourself to everyone around you — this is your entire social, material, human life. And then you find yourself in a world where everyone loves you, where your mood is at an absolute high, where you feel a thousand percent genuinely happy. Everything is provided for you — you have a family, children, warmth, pets, everything feels like something out of a paradise movie where life has completely worked out for you. And now, here you are, in all of it. But then what happens next? You stop wanting to exercise, you lose interest in maintaining a disciplined diet, you stop wanting to work, everything becomes dull, and because of these perfect conditions, you start living poorly, and as a result, you slip back into a bad world. How can I explain it? It’s as if people, because of their feelings of inadequacy — and this feeling, this favorite theme, especially among people from post-Soviet countries, this endless competition with one another, always judging, belittling, and constantly comparing themselves to others — this is what makes them always feel like nothing. And it’s as if, because of these emotions, you seem to grow, as if you’re developing and moving forward, and it seems that without these negative emotions, a person is simply incapable of voluntarily taking care of themselves, voluntarily watching over their health, voluntarily working. It’s as if a person can only start moving when faced with a critical situation. I saw this pattern: if a person enters the frequency of paradise — meaning a multiverse of paradise, a world of paradise (we will decipher this concept a bit later) — if a person enters this world, they begin to feel that everything is good for them. And these feelings take over so completely that they no longer want to work on themselves: they don’t want to work, study, exercise, or even read my books. Why would they?