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[Alexandr Korol]

them, pulling them to the dark side. And how does this manipulation happen? They start not just through actions but even simply through words — convincing you, changing your perception, so that you no longer see the world from your bright perspective but instead through a completely opposite, dark, negative lens. That is what these people, possessed by the serpent, begin to do. And this has been happening for years now. And I realize that it is so terrifying that I cannot allow myself to be on social media — I don’t even use a phone. Because any person who was bright yesterday could be taken over by the serpent today, and then who knows what they might do — whether to trap me, consume me, or provoke me. Can you imagine? And I had to cut off all contact with people to prevent this from happening — no matter how extreme that may sound, but that’s the reality. You don’t need to follow my example; the times have changed now, much has shifted, but still — I am speaking about myself personally, as the main character of the fourth volume of “Alternative History”.
As I start deciphering all of this and writing about it, different events begin happening to me in real life at the same time. In principle, I don’t leave my house — I work on my book within four walls — but suddenly, I start noticing that on certain days, for some reason, I experience an overwhelming fear. An insane, unexplainable fear, as if something has happened or is about to happen, and I feel unbearably afraid. A crushing sense of insecurity, a heavy weight on my soul, an overwhelming anxiety. I begin to feel this, yet there are no apparent reasons for it—I didn’t do anything yesterday or the day before, but today, all of a sudden, I feel it. I don’t understand how, why, or what it is. And I try... Naturally, as has always been my approach since childhood — whenever I feel insecure or whenever dark thoughts appear in my mind, and they have indeed appeared throughout my life — I have always had the principle that I must not allow them to manifest. Never, under any circumstances. If I suddenly feel angry, insecure, depressed, tempted, or overtaken by some kind of primal impulses, I immediately cut off all contact with people, shut myself in at home, and tell everyone I’m sick so that they leave me alone. I did this because I was afraid of harming people. And for me, people have always come first — I come second. I understood that I, in that state, could not be trusted. And in this state, under no circumstances should one ever write a book. In this state, one must never do anything at all, especially not to imprint it. Because if I am in some kind of