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[Alexandr Korol]

or which museum, church, or palace is nearby. But I couldn’t do that at all. It was like I was in a completely different current — I’d say to them, “Check what’s over there,” but I myself couldn’t even Google it or look it up, because for me it felt like a huge pressure shift. I was in something else entirely, in another rhythm. That’s what was happening. And now again, just from describing all this, my head feels heavy — like that same tube feeling. When I’m in this state, it’s like... You know how people sometimes think you’re looking at something, but really you’re looking at nothing? It’s like when someone zones out, stares at a spot, and you snap your fingers in front of them and they go, “Huh?” That’s what I’m like now — like I’ve drifted off somewhere, like I’m not here. That’s exactly the state I’m in now — this current. And it feels like if I keep talking about it, I’ll sink even deeper into it, because I can feel something wrapping around me. It’s like I’ve plugged into something, and it’s wrapping around me. Maybe it’s just the way my mind naturally describes what’s happening on some subtle level with my neural system, my neural connections — I don’t know. But I know that if I poured a glass of water right now — if there were a glass of water in front of me while I was answering this question — it would turn oily, just from being nearby. That’s what else was happening back then. All food would change taste, drinks would change taste, when I was in this state sitting in a café or at home — it’s like a kind of radiation. And if someone happened to meet me while I was in that state, they would immediately forget things, like they’d fall into some kind of vacuum — the same state I’m in now. And in that state, it’s as if time doesn’t exist. I could sit and talk to someone like this, and what felt like five minutes would actually be five hours. And afterward, they couldn’t remember how they spoke to me, where they were, or where they needed to go next. It was like they needed two mugs of coffee. And smokers — in this state, whenever they started to feel it, they would immediately want to light a cigarette, like they needed to suppress it. That’s why I always said, “Don’t suppress it. On the contrary, embrace it. It’s a good thing — it’s something divine.” But people always wanted to immediately, you know, wash it off, eat something, and try to control it with their mind. Because that mental control — that’s the world people live in. But this is a different world. There’s no mental control here, and yet it’s not like you’re some fool with your head in the clouds. No, it’s more like a higher intelligence. You feel crystal clear, like, “I’m here and now. I’ve arrived.” That’s the state I’m in.