study these experiences together to find out who I am and why this knowledge was given to me.
How I got to the point of writing a second book. When I was approximately seventeen or eighteen, I met a friend. I told her that I left my family home and I felt very strange. I told her that I couldn’t close my palms or squeeze my fingers. My palms are always open because I feel such a thick pressure between them. Also, I told her that I hear an internal voice and I can ask it any question and get an answer to it. I told her that I could see through everyone. I sense who they are and what they are about, and I don’t understand how I do it. So my friend told me that I needed to meet her mom. That her mom is the same way as me. I was like: “Which way is that?”. And she told me: “The magical way”. So I agreed and met her mom, her name was Valentina. And she was not some crazy old woman wearing weird clothes and possessions. She was a very modern, active, and quite young woman, a business lady. So I spoke to Valentina and told her about myself, how strange I feel about the world and myself, and that I don’t understand who I am. I told her that I was called an “indigo child” and an empath and that I felt an altered state of mind, a meditative state of mind. She listened to me and told me that I was a “Golden Child.” I was like: “What? What does it mean?” She said: “You are a Golden Child, Alex, and your life will be uneasy and complicated. “ She also told me that complicated doesn’t mean bad, it’s intricate. I told her that I received so much information and insights, and I was not interested in being around people my age. I don’t know what to do and where to go, and I feel such strength and power inside of me that I could create some kind of psychological weapon like I know everything. And then she told me to write a book, and I told her that I’m writing a diary.
– Great. When you finish your notes in your diary, put them into a book and give it a name.
– What name?
– Well, what are you writing about? Why are you doing it? What for?
– I am looking for an answer.
– So call it “An Answer”.