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[Alexandr Korol]

I don’t know what will happen next. When I finish writing the books — how will it all end? Will I end the way all the heroes of our time do? Or will I be given a pension and a vacation, and become an ordinary mortal, and the system, the Spirit, will finally let me go? I really don’t know. Or maybe I do. But... about that word “publicity” — coming back to the question of whether I’ll be noticed or recognized — I’ll say this: I am very much aware that I’m in a shadow ban until a certain point. I’m deliberately made to be unknown, so that no people, no scientists, no secret services, no one notices or has noticed me — and it’s all for one simple reason: because nature, the system, wants me not to be distracted and to continue working in my own rhythm, meaning writing books. If right now my book, the first volume of “Alternative History,” suddenly became noticed around the world, and people everywhere started discussing it on television, and writing to me, calling me, inviting me to meetings, interviews, or research projects — I wouldn’t be able to write the rest of the volumes of “Alternative History.” So we can conclude that until I finish writing “Alternative History,” no one will notice it. It’s in a shadow ban. Only when I finish it, then maybe — let’s say — the system will allow me, or rather will itself arrange for people to find out about me. So this fear of Valentina’s — that I shouldn’t speak out about myself because they’ll come take me... Well, maybe those who would take me already know, and they’re just leaving me alone. Or maybe I really am under such a deep shadow ban that no one has even the slightest idea who I am. Even though my books are super intelligent and unique — about how the world works, what the future holds, what the past really was — they’re sitting right in front of everyone’s faces and remain invisible. Because I mustn’t be distracted. Because people would start thinking about me too soon, and that would throw me off my writing rhythm. I need to finish the books. Once I finish them, then the system will pull me out of the shadow ban, and the books will, let’s say, become revealed to everyone.

Question: At the beginning of the first volume, you describe a state in which you feel that “they” exist — “they” know everything and control everything. Can you describe in more detail when you began to understand this and how this feeling first appeared from the very beginning?