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[Alexandr Korol]

Oh, I would really nitpick this question right now — every single word. But not at you — rather at myself, for what I once wrote and claimed in my books. So, back in 2010, 2011... Let me tell it differently. There was a person, an acquaintance from Moscow. Maybe one day she’ll read my book and recognize herself. Well, she was an older woman. And this older woman, back in 2000 — actually, it was early 2011 if I’m not mistaken, or spring of 2011 — she had read, or was reading at the time, my books “The Answer” and “The Path.” And “The Path” is the same as what became “Alternative History.” These were all the drafts. And she wanted to call me. But she wasn’t just a reader — she was someone I knew. We met in Saint Petersburg, on Konyushennaya Square. She was with a friend, in a rented car. That’s how we met. I told her I was a writer. And so she later read all those drafts of my books and wanted to have a call — if I’m not mistaken, it was either on Skype or by phone — and she wanted to ask me some questions. And she said to me — I don’t know whether it was based on my books or just her own thoughts — but she said, “Alex, who am I speaking to right now?” It’s really hard to recall exactly how it went, I might mix up some parts. I said, “To Alexandr.” She asked, “Which Alexandr? The one from the book — the magical one?” — she meant that — or the simple, material Alex, just an ordinary person. I said, the one from the book, the magical one. She said, “Alright, then can I ask this magical Alex some questions?” I said, “Alright.” So she began asking questions — spiritual in nature, not personal, not about herself, but things like questions about God, aliens, things like that. And then she came to a question and said something like, “What do you actually want? Why did you come here? What’s your purpose? What do you need to be happy?” Yes, I think she asked it that way — what do I personally need for happiness, what do I want. And I told her, “Well, you noticed that there are two versions of me. And that version of me — the material Alex — that’s only 5 percent.” I expressed it clumsily, of course — how would I know what percentage? But I said, “That part of me is 5 percent. That’s like the thinking person — I have to worry about how to pay rent. When I deal with people, I get pulled into all of that — that’s the earthly me. That’s where it’s bad, where there’s time, illness, thoughts, doubt, uncertainty. And 95 percent — that’s the real me. And I want to become that real me fully, to be that spiritual version 100 percent.” And she asked me, “What do you need for that?” I told her, “Actually, sometimes I do become 100 percent Him —