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[Alexandr Korol]

And then I began to see — this was all in dreams and in that half-sleep state when I was trying to fall asleep. Honestly, it feels like I haven’t really slept this whole week. It’s like I was both asleep and not asleep. My real life itself feels like I’m half-asleep, and when I lie down, I don’t fully fall asleep either — it’s as if I never quite slept. So this whole time I’ve been somewhere in between, between sleep and reality. A very unusual state. I greet every morning and every evening twilight, often looking out the window just to check whether the world still exists or not. Why has this been happening to me? It’s because of the realization, something is processing in my head ever since I finished the fifth volume — that the tetrahedron is the fifth element. And I started building the matrix again from scratch — took wooden sticks, a glue gun, and every day I’ve been working on it, gluing everything myself by hand. Yesterday, February 2, I was gluing the matrix for over seven hours, and today, when I woke up, I continued working on it, but now I’ve decided to take a break. But I wouldn’t even say I noticed how those 7–8 hours passed yesterday. It really reminded me of autistic children, or how it’s shown in films, when you’re completely absorbed in one thing and that’s it. I remembered the movie “The Accountant” with Ben Affleck, where the boy repeats, “Finish it! Gotta finish it!” And I kept walking around repeating, “Gotta finish it, gotta finish it,” when I took a short break to have some tea and then sat back down to keep building the matrix. And what was I doing? It turns out that on the morning of February 2, I woke up already so overloaded with information in my head about the matrix — because I had been sketching it all out mentally — and I realized that I needed to physically build it already, just to test it out, otherwise I’d get completely lost. And so I started bringing to life everything that I had drawn in my head. First of all, I needed to build the tetrahedron separately. In fact, I needed to build all the geometric figures separately, so they wouldn’t all be inside each other like before, but each on its own — so I could actually see how everything is built and formed: the same octahedron, the same tetrahedron, how inside a tetrahedron there’s an octahedron — that is, a diamond shape within a three-dimensional triangle, to put it simply. Like, for example, when we have two triangles inside each other, volumetric tetrahedrons inside a cube — how they fit together. And I remembered that even the last time