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[Alexandr Korol]

January. The interesting thing is, I failed those trials, and I openly admit it in the fifth volume of the book that I did not pass, that it was shameful, embarrassing how I reacted, how I behaved. From an outside perspective, nothing really terrible happened, but I still reacted, when I shouldn’t have. Then the Mystic-Old-Man confirmed that these demons would attack me, and Big Alexander warned me that demons would attack. Big Alexander even said that I should stop fighting them and instead accept them, that it is normal. He gave me such a hint back in early January. Now I see how these trials have multiplied, intensified. I am now on the verge of overcoming this dark force — not by fighting it, because that is exactly my mistake, that you can’t fight it — but by not reacting even 0.01% to any incident or provocation. And then I will have won, and that will be the enlightenment.
But then it gets even more interesting. I start to remember that before, I didn’t have anything like this. I clearly remember how long ago I wrote my first books and described myself as already enlightened and awakened. It’s recorded in my diaries, in my books, and I have a good memory. It couldn’t have been an illusion. I clearly remember seeing how irritated people were, how scared they were, how everyone was under the influence of various illusions — some had envy, some greed, some egoism, complexes, all those things — but I had none of that. I was simply like zero, yet whatever happened, it was as if I had zero fear, like I had absolute confidence, true faith, that I could walk anywhere and no matter what was happening around me — explosions at home, meteors falling — I wouldn’t even flinch. And when people did nasty things, I remember now trying to recall how I reacted back then. I truly remember that I was in such a spiritual state that I didn’t perceive whether it was girl Olya or boy Maxim; I clearly understood it was the system, and that was the first thing that gave me... I just remember when my friends asked me, “Alex, how come so many nasty things happen to you, but you don’t react?” And I first of all said, I don’t see it as nastiness, that’s one thing. And secondly, I immediately said, it’s not really Olya or Maxim doing this; it’s like the system itself, that is, God. So why would I ask Maxim or Olya why they did it? They themselves don’t know; they were used. But why did God, that is, the system, use them to do it? That’s a different question altogether. And I remember my stance back then: