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[Alexandr Korol]

and then there’s the person themselves. But it felt as if she was connected to something — not just acting as a person, but like she was in some kind of flow, in a state of wild inspiration. And for many hours, my mom was explaining everything about the color red to me, even though I hadn’t planned on having that kind of conversation with her, and didn’t really ask her anything directly about it — yet she spoke as if she were a messenger. It was very unusual. And as it turned out, she’s always worn red. I thought, “I’ve never seen her in red.” And I remember that my associations with her were more about the color white — I know my mom likes wearing white, and I personally really don’t like white at all. As for the color white — that’s a whole separate story, because once some Buddhists and monks told me that I absolutely shouldn’t wear too much white. They said that white doesn’t give me energy. I’m very cautious with white. I mean, of course I can wear white sneakers, and sure, I can wear a white T-shirt under a jacket or shirt — but that’s the limit. But definitely not white pants, not a white jacket, not white hoodies — nothing like that. A white cap with a blue brim — that works. A white T-shirt if you’re on a beach — fine, but that’s the limit. And there’s also, for some reason, this very clear distinction between lower and upper clothing. Like, lower garments versus upper garments — some things are okay to wear in certain colors, but only on top. For example, pants — no white pants. So when someone wears a color, it’s worth asking — where do they wear it? On the body, on the torso? Is it a jacket or upper wear — or is it pants? That matters.
And so my mom and I start talking, and it turns out she has a whole lot of red and white clothing — especially red. And she tells me: “Red, you don’t even understand how serious it is. Not everyone can wear red — many people are afraid of it. You have to grow into red. It’s a specific kind of energy, and not everyone can handle it — it’s very heavy. But it’s heavy only for those who haven’t grown into it. In truth, it’s the opposite — it’s a source of energy, an insane, limitless energy, insane power. Red affects a person — if they’ve grown into it, if they choose it not with the mind but because their soul just wants it and is drawn to it — then that means the person is on a very strong level. And that means they have a lot of energy. These are people who never experience depression. These are people who always, as they say in quotes, “burn with Spirit.” It also serves as a kind