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[Alexandr Korol]

Something truly is happening with them, something specific is happening with them. And the Mystic-Old-Man said that into that middle, into which I am precisely entering, the unique one, I will still be entering and may remain there, so as not to transition into the opposite. This is very important, that he truly understands what he is saying, this is how it is. This is the middle, the most important, into which I am now entering, but I am always entering into it. That is, in essence, I have written about this in all my volumes of “Alternative History,” this process — it simply takes so long. And now, since I must already specifically place emphasis on it, it means everything is moving toward completion, this golden middle. And suddenly I understand that, probably, I will not go anywhere, not fly anywhere, since there is nowhere I need to fly. And now I am in such a suspended state, what to do, what to do.

Well, and then I called yesterday, May 14, in the evening, Big Alexander, and I begin to discuss all this with him. I will even look now at what I had written down. This was curious: he tells me, Big Alexander, that this is precisely that milk ocean, the middle of the world, from where everything is born and created. And that I am precisely unfolding, thus reflecting into two worlds — into plus and minus, and that I am moving toward this middle. That now this process is going on, and that this is precisely the main, the key, toward which I have in general been moving — this is the completion of the path. It turns out that there is this middle world between the two worlds. And here it is these three again, these worlds. Only these are already such three universes: “mother”, “father”, and I in the middle, appeared from them, as if from the intersection of wheels, I am born. And he said that in any case I must move somewhere, it cannot be that it only seemed to me. It is simply that some system is specifically pushing me toward where it is necessary, to a certain city or country. And I tell him:

— So that’s it, I have already given up the apartment that I was renting. That is, that’s it, I am already packed.
— Well then all the more. That means you are in any case going somewhere.