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[Alexandr Korol]

And you just say to him: Alright, forget it. That’s it, we’re not going. And I remember that there were a million such cases. That when I was in the world of heaven I could do things unplanned, and it is very important not to plan in the world of heaven, that if you say since the restaurant is closed, let’s climb the hill. If you say this to someone, and he answers let’s go, then that’s it, the magic happens. But if they answer wait, we need to schedule it for a precise day and time, then that’s it, it is already done with the mind in the world of people, in tension. And I immediately said no, if not now, then never. And in the world of heaven, earlier, when I was small, I lived by such a rule. It was simply natural for me, from the soul, from the heart. I even described it in my draft chapters, in the book “Paradox,” that if not now, then never, and so it was in everything. That is, if I came to a store and said I want this kite, and they told me listen, the only one left is in the display, it is bad, come on Wednesday. I would answer on Wednesday it’s over, I only need it now. And for me it was always like that: now or never. I cannot plan. Maybe later I will want it again, but I must not make a plan for some Wednesday. I don’t know what will happen tomorrow. That is the world of heaven. That is, you don’t know what will happen tomorrow, and you cannot plan. Only people in the world of people plan, that is the paradox.

I remembered how it was in childhood. As in childhood, in youth, I could buy a ticket with friends for a concert that would take place in a month, but I would apologize a thousand times in advance, telling them that maybe in a month I would not be able to go when that day came, because I lived by feelings and did not belong to myself, was not attached to anything, and I did not know where I would be, in that city or country, and whether I would be able to go that day. I said: I don’t want to think about it, we can buy a ticket, but maybe I won’t be there. Or maybe I will. That’s how it always was. And the same with meetings, that is, with any person, when I was in the world of heaven, if someone told me:

— Let’s meet on Friday?
— Ask me about it on Friday. Only then can I tell you yes or no. And maybe it will be no.