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[Alexandr Korol]

Chapter 11. Descended from Heaven, Conversations

Yesterday I spoke with Big Alexander. Well, I told him about how I had such warm, pleasant dreams, that I was simply shocked: about the lottery, then about how I was solving the matrix with the Mystic-Old-Man. And then about how I see what paradise is and the people who live in paradise, that it is here physically, that I even wrote about this in childhood. And here is what is very interesting, what he told me. He told me: “In childhood everything was given to you. Then it was taken away from you.” That is, it turns out, in childhood I was in happiness, in paradise, as if I knew everything and was completely self-sufficient, and everything was included, and fearlessness, insane faith. And then it was taken from me, but I know it, I understand it, I remember it. Naturally, for us humans, it is characteristic to ask the question — for what? Why? What did I do wrong? But you see, here the point is not that someone punished me or that I did something wrong. But here Big Alexander says that as if what I am moving toward — I do not know what it is, where I am going, what I am becoming or who I am becoming — but he says this happens in three stages. And here I remember that he spoke about this before, long ago. Maybe when I was still living in New York in 2017, but he told me about it. Every time I opened up and spoke about how I was as if I was closed up and lost myself, and then found myself again — I expressed this in human language, since I did not know that there are different worlds and so on. He said that it is as if it must be so. And I have now begun to remember this, and that it must happen three times. I remember he spoke about this, that it must happen three times, that I must as if three times, figuratively speaking, become spiritual, enter paradise, or become Spirit, or whoever, and then again descend into the world of people, and lose it all and forget. Then again find it all and remember everything, then again lose it all and forget. Can you imagine? And as I now understand, it was not about this happening three more times. As if now this is all already coming to completion, that it seems he meant that all these three times have already been. And he said that when a person goes through these three times — that it is given, then taken away, given, then taken away, given, then taken away — then after this the person comes to make some kind of choice, to finally determine. I remember even Valentina told me about this long ago, in 2012. She says: