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[Alexandr Korol]

I suddenly remembered again that this was exactly how I then spoke with Him. She just described it in such a way, that she said: “You communicate with Him, but as if you do not open your mouth.” And that is how it is. That is, you mentally are simply speaking. And so He spoke with me then. And I wrote all of this in my draft notebooks, and then in the first volume of “Alternative History.” And after that all sorts of unusual things began. And at that time I also noted that before then I was always sick, all sorts of colds, all kinds of unclear things. And then suddenly, and that was it, as if no illnesses and nothing. And then I also began to feel all people, and in general I completely changed after that incident. And now there is the feeling that afterwards that magical world, in which I was then, was lost. Because with time other songs began to slip in, other music, other people. And so gradually you get pulled into another little world. And you do not notice how you lose the world of the sky and fall from it. Well, again, in my case it was all on purpose, it was necessary, inevitable. Fate, as they say. And now, again returning, touching this magical world of the sky, I begin to have thoughts and desires that I want to go through all the temples, through all the places of power, especially in Petersburg. And there are so many of them in Petersburg, these places, it is simply amazing. The most magical place. And besides all of this, naturally, immediately I had thoughts that I want to listen before sleep, as before, to the music of YOAV and The XX. And I would not want to use the word “meditate,” people now have the wrong understanding of this and association. You see, people now say they meditate when they go half-naked to the gym and take photos for social networks. They think that this is meditation and they write so, that they are meditating, so let us not use this word. Let us say rather, to touch the world of the sky and something divine is what one wants. And it is as if you can turn on the music of YOAV and The XX and dissolve in all this. And it is as if one does not want to be distracted even by movies, but simply to sit in the music before sleep for an hour or two, and simply try to dissolve as much as possible, to relax, to calm down. Yes, so perhaps I will listen to the music of YOAV as in childhood, and with all the sounds of the track Beautiful Lie imagine how I connect somewhere. I will see what interesting comes of it. Perhaps I will again have a dialogue with the Boss, who knows.