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[Alexandr Korol]

Can you imagine? And here I had such progress. But I still, generally here
I have not a percent of such some kind of joy that I am sure that I defeated
the beast. No, this person, he can again flip out even today from something,
from some social networks or what he does, spends time. And again he
will become rabid, crazy, will invent something, how to take money from
me for something, for work, and leave with it. He can do such a thing.
As Big Alexander advised me, this is a super-test for me, spiritual,
connected with “Alternative History,” with my entire mission, that I must
do this, pass this. And I truly feel how I am becoming super super strongly
spiritual. Because when they humiliate you, insult and twist everything
so that you are also guilty in everything, a traitor, and you are actually not
like that. And when it plunges you into such a looking-glass world — this
is, of course, harsh. And when you try not to fall for this and defend your
position, without straining, without swearing, in such a humble state — this
is of course wow. So the fight with Mara continues, and Mara, of course,
tells me a lot of nasty things. Were it any other period of time, I would have
fired this person long ago and sent him far and away. But have to endure,
suffer, accept all this as it is, and wait for when this beast in him simply gets
tired of being. That is what I am engaged in now lately.

Later the continuation of the story, conversations with the beast.
I communicated yesterday with my employee. When the employee was
more or less calm, he didn’t have this activated beast, that is, the demon.
It is clear that he sits inside him, but he was as if in a sleeping mode.
And he, naturally, this demon, that is, this beast, wakes up only for some
reason: something feeds it, or something provokes it, or it feeds on food
that feeds it, nourishes this beast. And so we are talking, one might say,
heart to heart with my employee. I say to him:

— Do you remember everything you told me recently, how you realized
that there is a dark force sitting in you, that you are eternally offended by
people and run away, and get angry at them, although the reason is only in you?
That it is you who eternally spoils things there, breaks, lies, and then does
not want to face this truth and gets mad?