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[Alexandr Korol]

Well, since I understood they both feared me, were shy of me, they sort of
calmed down, as there was at least this third outside person who was blinking
with bulging eyes in shock, looking at all this from the side, like: “what is
even happening?” For me, it was like slow motion, that’s how I perceived it
all. And I saw how this beast awakens, how people let it in — that you just said
something to one person, and they perceive any word so sharply, as if it’s an
attack, and they “bark” back at you, and if they “bark” back at you, for you it’s
an attack, and that’s it. And people as if lose control, and this uncontrollable
beast possesses them. But it is so illogical, this uncontrollable beast, because
if it possesses you, it does not protect you. It doesn’t care if you go to prison
if you commit a crime, or whether you remain alive and whole if you do
something wrong right now. That is, this beast doesn’t care; it is simply like
emotional instability. This evil force enters and takes control away from the
person. And so I see how, in just a second, this force can possess any person,
and the person becomes like a kamikaze. He lunges at people to destroy them,
and so that they destroy him too. That is, the beast always pursues such a
goal — to destroy both; it attacks. And whoever is the carrier of this beast,
whoever let the beast into themselves, they let the beast in, and that’s it, and
this person self-destructs and destroys the one they are attacking. Well, it’s
very unusual that I saw this specifically from the side. I, naturally, am worried,
thinking about it — how can one help people? Or is it already impossible to
help them? Well, it’s good that I at least... this beast cannot enter me. And
it’s good that I already have such experience that if this wakes up in someone,
I at least don’t fall for it now and I know what it is. Because as soon as you
react even a little to this beast — if it has possessed your friend — this beast
will immediately take possession of you too. And here is another point: if such
a beast has possessed your friend, then no matter how it, this beast, lunges
at you with nasty, let’s say, words, phrases, or threats, one must remain so
peaceful and calm as to soothe one’s neighbor with this peace, to soothe one’s
close person. And then he, let’s say, cools down. But if you yourself react
to this in response, then the beast in him wakes up even more, takes even
firmer root, and this beast will wake up in you as well. Very interesting.