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[Alexandr Korol]

What else was in this world that I was in? You understand, I still don’t fully know the reasons why I ended up in this world. This is what I will still be figuring out — how I ended up there. Either it’s because I had made certain decisions and choices, and because of this I ended up in this world of childhood and “without the mind”… But there are other factors there. Or I ended up in this state because of my female acquaintance, the one I had started communicating with. Or because, on the contrary, I had been philosophizing and figured that there is the world of the sun, the world of the moon, and that I want to be alone with God — and maybe, because of these kinds of thoughts, I ended up in this state. Let’s take note of that. Or because I started communicating with my mother more often. After all, just imagine — this is my own mother — and she isn’t simple, since she gave birth to me. Maybe because of this something happened — because, you see, I am after all her son, her child — maybe because of this I started feeling this way. Who knows. But for now this is all in theory, as a note — because this is a diary in which I simply want to record all of this. To record this path I am walking through, so that in the end one will be able to understand what finale I arrive at, and thanks to what circumstances.

When I was in this state, I noticed that I couldn’t… I would orient myself in order to understand what world I was in — you can understand this by the simplest signs: with what people you have started to communicate, with whom you have stopped, what you have dressed in, what music you want to listen to, and what films you want to watch. And by these elements, I would orient myself: am I in one world or another. And if we take, as the measure, this world that I ended up in 14 days ago — it is maximally family-oriented. It’s even, you know, this kind: there are films that many people find hard to concentrate on, because they are like a tale of a life, some kind of adventure without drive, of ordinary life. Like, for instance, “The Peanut Butter Falcon.” It’s simply a film. And it’s as if you can watch films like this, because you simply live this way. As if your life is ordinary, balanced, calm. And the films are only heartwarming. The music has become very volumetric, maximally heartwarming, light. Naturally — it’s Angus & Julia Stone. That is — obviously, any person can listen to Angus & Julia Stone. But everyone, you see, lives at different frequencies, in different dimensions, in different multiverses. Someone lives in heaven, someone on the earth, someone in the