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[Alexandr Korol]

And then the Spirit showed that it must be this way: if he tells me to get up at six
in the morning every morning, then I must get up at six in the morning every
morning. If he says that I can lie in bed all day, loll about in bed and rest, then it
means I must lie there and rest. And he said that I can simply allow myself this
right now. That is, a person cannot allow himself such a thing. He says that all the
conditions have now been created, and I am in that position where I can allow
myself this. Because I have no responsibility right now to go off somewhere to
a university, or to have to get up for work by a certain time, where an enormous
staff of employees is waiting for me. Because there are no such obligations and
no such great responsibility now, I can let this will of God into myself even more.
And then he begins to tell me what to eat, what to drink, what to put on. Let’s
say I want to go to bed, he says: “No, sit, work at the desk.” I answer: “Okay.” I
want to go to bed to watch a film, he says: “No, sit at the desk, watch the film,” —
which is what was happening yesterday. And then he tells me to take a rest from
the series “Person of Interest.” He says: “Put on some films, watch films.” I ask:
“Which ones?” From the recent ones. And the recent films I had downloaded
were all about Mars, all films made from the books of these three science fiction
writers: that’s Edgar Rice Burroughs, that’s Isaac Asimov and the most key one —
Philip K. Dick. And I watch all the films and series that I’ve selected, made from
Philip K. Dick. First I put on the film “Forsaken.” Then I put on the film “Next”
with Nicolas Cage. And then I’m already about to stop watching films, as it were,
and he says: “No, we need more.” I say: “Okay.” And I didn’t want to choose this
film, because I precisely didn’t like — my human mind, which gets in the way — I
somehow didn’t like the title, the cover. And this Spirit tells me directly that I
absolutely must watch it, even though it’s already the third film, I’m already tired
of films, he says that I absolutely must watch the film “Radio Free Albemuth,”
2010, made from Philip K. Dick. I begin to watch this film. And I’m in shock
from this film. Because it is all of what is happening with me now, all this time,
it’s everything, it explains absolutely everything my novel is about. As if this
Spirit or spirits, God or gods, that is, the system which is writing this novel
through me, it also wants, as it were, to convey information to the reader and to
me: what is going on in general, where I take the information from, what kind of
information it is, why I’m doing this, why I need to write children’s books, why
I need to write novels, who all these science fiction writers were, these writers,