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[Alexandr Korol]

representatives. I have to know how each person is organised, I have to know this whole world. On one hand I know the matrix I live in, but to know the new matrix I have created. The essence is the same.

In fact, my brain is exploding in my head. Because now I realise all the strange situations that happened. Of course, in some periods, especially when I was writing “Paradox”, the first, second and third parts, I recorded some moments and wrote about them. But people were always smearing me, always poking me. And in some moments I stopped believing that it was true, that it could be true, that it seemed true. But seriously, ever since I was a child, I have always had the feeling of outside interference in my life, when a bird crashed into the window, when someone knocks, when the phone suddenly goes dead, when the lights suddenly go out at a certain moment, when you write a letter to someone to tell them something and the letter is deleted. There are moments like that. I particularly remember my childhood and the period when I had my first video in 2010, when I was in front of the blackboard; it was very ofter back then. It was almost every day back then. It was like the system was bringing me together with people, taking people away from me, taking me to something. It was all external interference and I was aware of it.
It was so much that, you know, when you live in the world of people, you know, when something happens to you, you think about whether it’s a sign or not. And in my situation there was no such thing as whether it was a sign or not. When there was this intervention, I always knew it was an intervention. Always. And of course, out of naivety, when I was a child, I told all my friends, acquaintances, whoever came in my life, and they all looked at me like I was an idiot. I didn’t think I was. Now it happens to me every day. It’s very unusual. Every day. I was just on the phone and the person I was talking to was cut off. He says his lights went out and we were on Wi-Fi, not mobile, so it went out. The most interesting thing is that it went off just as he was about to ask me something, and that’s it, and the conversation ended, as if the limit of conversation and topics we could bring up had been exhausted. The person then texted me to say he was ready to call me back. I said, “You don’t need to. It’s enough. What else there is to talk about?” And I remember how many times this intervention has happened. How many times has this intervention happened in all the cases, with all the people?